Always on the countdown

Jul 2, 2012 by

The thing with being with someone in the military is nothing ever lasts. I have my hubby home, but we’re still on a countdown. The countdown back to normality? Back to having some sort of routine between the two of us? No, that won’t happen until next year, if we’re lucky. Each countdown is just counting down to the next countdown. How depressing is that? Wishing away the time until I get a break from knowing hubby will soon be going away again.

For me, this year has been a particular struggle, and it’s still nowhere near the end. 2012- The year of waiting. Let me explain:
Start of the year hubby went to the sandy land for 3 and a half months. Got back mid May and went straight onto a 4 week course, a constant reminder that his next tour is not that far away. Hubby is currently on week 2 of his 3 weeks POTL, and as his leave comes to an end, it makes me wonder if we will now get back to some sort of sense of normality. However after hubby goes back to work, I have 2 weeks left of term then my routine goes out the window as I work here and there, at unknown hours. 3/4 weeks after that, my hubby goes back out to afghan, leaving me on my own again.
In about five months from now, my hubby will be home, we’ll be on the countdown for our Christmas (much needed) holiday, and just maybe things will return to “normal” for a little while at least.

Everyone always says, live for the moment, concentrate on now, but is it really as easy as everyone says. I’ll be honest, I’m loving having my hubby home, and we’re making the most of it, going out and about, doing all the things we want to do, and spending lots of time together. But there’s always a grey cloud following us, a constant reminder that our time together until his next tour is ticking down, running out.

However, I try not to dwell on it, like most things in my life when it comes to the army, I don’t do anything about it, I just have to go with it and make the most of it. Fingers crossed we’ll get a chance to spend more time together in 2013, but who knows what the future holds. There’s already talks of another tour, getting posted and various other possibilities, but for now I’m just concentrating on making it through the rest of this year, with most my sanity still in tact.

Roll on 2013!!

By Kelly Ward

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